Yep, I’m changing the name of my blog yet again.
525,600 is the number of minutes in a year. If you've ever watched the movie or the play Rent, you've probably heard the song "Seasons of Love" and how it talks about how we spend those 525,600 minutes. Actually I remember hearing it for the first time as the background music for a then local NBC television station's annual look back at the top stories of the year. I hummed the chorus for at least a year before I discovered that Google was my friend and found the correct name of the song. I still find myself humming it on a daily basis.
Anyhoo, we’re 50 days into 2010 and I was reflecting back on when I first started my blog and what my goals and intentions were and how they are the same and yet in some ways different from the ones I have for today. One of the major things that I now think is important is to capture all 525,600 minutes in some way, shape or form. The little things are just as important as the big things. I think random pictures, quotes, videos, thoughts etc. in all areas of my life are just important as the “biggies” and should be equally celebrated. While my main focus definitely still needs to be on physique/diet improvements, I also have financial, spiritual, relationship and personal goals that need to be documented and given equal time as well. Creating balance is one of the things that I am continuing to focus on throughout this new year and beyond.
Below is my very first blog entry and my first comments received from last year. I love looking back and comparing where I was then to where I am now. Some things have changed and others have remained the same. The main thing I remember was that I was so excited to finally get a blog up and going and then actually receive comments of support right off bat. It was an awesome feeling.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
I thought it be really interesting to document the step-by-step emancipation of the lean, chiseled, 5 inch heel, blinged out suit wearing figure diva that is now trapped under 200+ lbs of flubber that is currently me. This will be a long process but in the end, it will be something that will be truly amazing to look back on and see exactly where it all started.
My name is Lyn and I am fat..so fat that I have the beginning stages of a F.U.P.A. If you don't know what one of those is, well, then Google is your friend, look it up. Anyway, like I was saying, I am fat. I am not thick, big-boned, heavy-set or any of those nice words people like to use to describe the obese. I prefer to keep it real and call 'em like I see 'em. I am simply fat. I did not get this way due to a thyroid issue, or any type of medical issue. I got this way because I ate too much and exercised too little. I am a lover of all that is fried, buttered, greasy, sweet and fat-laden. I have never met a combo meal that I didn't like. But you know what? I am a lover of me too and I know this is not the me I want to go through life being. I am vain. I want to look good and I want others to think I look good. I admit it. I will enjoy the jealous and bitchy looks that I will one day receive. I will enjoy the attention I get from men. I will not care that the attention will piss off wives and girlfriends. That will be their issue, not mine. ...just keeping it real. I'm not by any means saying that I will go out of my way to dress or act inappropriately, but I will enjoy the fruits of my labor. Another reality is that one does not lug around 200+ lbs of fat for multiple years without some wear and tear on the body. When all is said and done and before I hit the NPC stage (or any stage) in my red crushed velvet suit and my 5 inch heels, I will need plastic surgery. I will definitely need a breast lift and a tummy tuck. I am saving for those now. It's quite possible that I will need some work done on my inner thighs as well. I plan on documenting all of that here as part of my process. I am also a very strong believer of the power of the human mind so my thoughts, feelings, frustrations etc will be documented as well. I want to remember everything, good and bad. Nothing is insignificant if the diva is to be freed.
During this process I am very lucky to have the support, knowledge and guidance of some very special friends, some of who's identity will be kept a secret for now, but when revealed will only make the end result that much sweeter. I know that not every day will be a victory, but I am ready for the battle. I am keeping in mind some famous words from Winston Churchill, "It's not enough that we do our best; sometimes we have to to what's required."
Posted by Anissa.Lynette at 6:52 PM
4 comments:
The Urban Perspective said...
Love the premise of your blog :) It's always good when you can laugh at yourself. You got me curious as to what's underneath it all. Look forward to more from you .
January 28, 2009 8:27 PM
Lis said...
LYN!! I can't wait to follow this journey that you have chosen to take. You're right, it's going to be A LOT of work but the rewards are even greater. I'll be checking in on ya!
Always support,
LM
January 29, 2009 3:21 AM
Sportsgirl said...
I'll forgive you for dissing my Steak 'n Guinness pie.
Look forward to following your journey!!
Your blog is all pretty with these pink bows on the side!
February 1, 2009 2:01 AM
kevamykaikam said...
I love the intro! You are always so well with words, not to mention funny. I can't wait to see you debut your hot body!!
February 1, 2009 10:00 AM
Oh and here’s a link to the video of the song that inspired the name change of the blog. I love the message.
Love yourself always, Lyn! Great post and mindset to get you going in the right direction. I'm cheering for you all the way. It will not be an easy journey but I know you want it and can achieve it. One step at a time, one day at time :) I will never forget my journey and excited for yours.
ReplyDeleteGirl, you can do whatever you want. Focus and determination. Sometimes the road isn't easy, clear or without the biggest potholes imaginable but never stop trying to stick to it.
ReplyDeleteKeep being yourself and all else will not matter.
HUGS!
I have to tell you, your journey is amazing and inspiring! I love Rent and often think about the moments in the year and remind myself not to let them pass me by. I wish you lots of luck on your journey! =)
ReplyDeleteThanks Ames (Amy)!! I really appreciate your comments and your support. I remember your journey well, it was amazing. I've wasted a lot of time and am nowhere close to where I need to be, but I'm going to get there...1-2lbs a week, a week at a time.
ReplyDeleteThanks Heather and MaryBeth!! I can't really say that I set the woods on fire in 2009, but nothing I can really do about that now other than learn, tweek and move for forward. I've got some new smaller, clearer, and attainable goals that I'm striving for, mainly not looking so much at the big picture but taking it one meal and one gym session at a time. I set a goal of 1-2 lbs a week for myself a few weeks ago and have been consistently meeting and exceeding that goal which keeps me going. I know I won't always meet those numbers but I'm enjoying it while I can. Ahh...the merits of being fat. Love you guys more than you'll ever know.
ReplyDeleteLyn
You KNOW that I have your back..and I ALWAYS HAVE!!!! Love that song-have you seen the play? it was really good!
ReplyDeleteNo doubt about it!!! Nope, haven't seen the play, just the movie version.
ReplyDeleteWow, that song brought back memories. That was the piece I had to sing for choir tryouts every year back in high school. And whaddya know, I still remember the whole thing lol. Awesome song ;)
ReplyDeleteWow Neely, I didn't know you sang. I wish I could sing. I can't carry a tune to save my life.
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